Grand Plans

At small group today we all shared something that we were content with in our lives, and something that we felt restless about. I am so happy and content with where Zach and I are in the process of adoption. The paperwork stressed me out, but ever since I put it in the mail in June, I’ve been totally at peace. Even though our agency is unsure of their future (and ours) right now, I am at peace. Even though we don’t know who or when or what kind of kids we’ll get, I’m at peace,

I believe that God has a beautiful plan for our children. I am not worried about tomorrow. This adoption process is now out of my hands and out of my control. All I can do is trust that God’s plan will be fulfilled in us, whatever and whenever that may be.

It’s interesting to note that people’s reactions are generally the same when they first find out that we are adopting. I would estimate that about 90% say, “Oh, I had a friend who couldn’t have kids so she and her husband decided to adopt. They were just about to get their kids and THEN THEY GOT PREGNANT!”  I truely don’t understand why people say that. It’s almost like saying that if you try to adopt, it will increase your chances of getting pregnant. Maybe they are trying to encourage us . . . ? But the thing is, we have decided to adopt, not pursue a pregnancy. We can’t get pregnant. It is not possible. Yes, it would be a miracle, but it’s not a miracle we want. We want our 2 Colombian children.

Of course, I can’t say anything like that in the conversations. I just nod my head and smile and say, “Oh really? That’s great.” Then quickly change the subject.